
(TW – this is not a cheerful post)
“I can’t find my ring!" she said. (”It’s not down the sink. Don’t worry.“)
I always find it. It’s never lost. I’m good at finding things. She is reading Leaves of Grass. "I like Whitman…”, she says. It’s an old copy with the names of three previous owners inside the cover. She wrote her own name there in steady script back in 2002. But it’s as if she’s reading through a veil. The words only pass before her eyes before being forgotten immediately. The act of reading is comforting but it must be like staring at a white wall trying to discern a sign painted over long ago.
“I am exact and merciless, but I love you— there is no escape for you.
Softly I lay my right hand upon you, you just feel it,
I do not argue, I bend my head close and half envelop it,
I sit quietly by, I remain faithful.
I am more than nurse, more than parent or neighbor,
I absolve you from all except yourself spiritual bodily, that is
eternal, you yourself will surely escape…”
"I like Whitman…”, she says.